Do not worry

“Do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on.”  -Matthew 6:25

    I remember the day I learned that our church couldn’t meet at the Elgood Theater anymore.  I was devastated.  I had prayed to the God of heaven, and asked him for that location.  I remember walking through it with my wife and knowing it was the place for us.  When the door closed, it was a blow.

    In the weeks that followed, I was afraid.  I was afraid that we wouldn’t find a place to meet.  What would we do?  I kept seeing all these different scenarios.  What if people didn’t like the new location?  What if it cost too much?  What if the move discouraged our core team of volunteers?  All these questions and more. 

    So, we the weeks passed, and every road I walked down were all dead ends.  Finally found an open door, but it wasn’t great.  I was at home, and was getting ready to to and sign papers and enter into an agreement that was less than ideal, and I dropped my head.  It was time to stop being afraid.  Time to stop trying to make something happen.  So, I just surrendered.  The question at hand was not how hard could I hustle.  The issue at hand was did I trust my good Father.  

    So I let go.  I remember praying at my desk and then rising to leave.  I remember the phone buzzing, and staring in wide eyed wonder at the news that had come through.  It was Carraige Town, and they were calling to talk about a partnership. 

    It has been three weeks since we moved over to Carraige Town.  And we have seen the two biggest weekends in the history of our church. Flint is walking right in the front doors.  The vision I had of homeless sitting next to engineer, sitting next to felon, sitting next to student… I looked out this weekend and saw it.  It is just the beginning, but it is so good.  I couldn’t see what God was doing when one door closed.  Jesus’s call to not worry is not based on sight.  It is based on faith.  The same God who feeds the birds and clothes the grass cares for us.  And that means we can trust him.  It means we can seek the first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness, and all the other things will be added.

    So….I am in awe.  I am grateful.  And I am excited to see what happens next.

-Ernesto Alaniz